music of the sidewalks

April 28, 2008 at 2:33 am (Uncategorized)

i spent this weekend in south minneapolis with a group of 30 or so young people. The goal of the weekend was to get us immersed in urban culture and people, diversity- and looking at the face of the poor- to get us really thinking about our own stereotypes and challenging us to put those into the light.

my feelings going into the weekend were mixed. i knew this was where i needed to be, but there was a fear and anxiousness- my own selfishness vs. humility and sacrifice. “What do I have to offer these people?” I was afraid of getting lost. Afraid of being taken advantage. Afraid of being alone in a place where I was not comfortable. I was not yet a friend of south minneapolis, only an acquaintance.

we slept on the floor of hope community church, an old powerhouse near the light rail and metrodome. the group first traveled to the Global Market, and spent some time at a panel of 20-somethings talking about life in the heart of the city. On Saturday morning, we woke up with the quiet of the morning sun and sang simple worship chords to God and shared with each other a prayer of hope. We were told about a mysterious “spiritual exercise” that we’d be doing. mark called it ‘listening to the city’ and he told us to either go alone or in groups of two and jump on the light rail and just go anywhere- walk around, pray, listen, respond, journal…. and at the end of it, based on our time of meditation and prayer for the city, he asked us to write a poem- our style.

We were asked to prayerfully meditate over these questions:
- What do you see that is out of the ordinary?
- Where do you see signs of injustice or evil?
- Where do you see glimmers of hope?
- Look into people’s faces… What look do you see on their faces?
- Notice the church buildings…do they seem like inviting places? Or distant places?
- Where are all the people hanging out?
- How would Jesus connect with the people there?
- How many different sorts of people do you see?
- As you experience South Minneapolis, how do you feel?
- What do you think God thinks about what you’ve seen?

I jumped on the light rail with Helen and we went down to Hennepin, as far as it would go, and got off. We walked and listened and thought out loud and observed. I was beginning to get to know her, this beautiful city inside a hard shell- was really beautiful and fragile and intricate. but we were not yet friends, only acquaintances.

We came back in the afternoon to get together with our ‘Urban Experiences’ groups. We had about seven opportunities to choose from to spend our Saturday afternoon. Here they are:

Take a ride on the “Hospitality Train.” The Hospitality Train is an exploration of street hospitality where folks load up bike trailers and trikes, bringing fresh ingredients and high quality portable cooking equipment to feed people delicious vegan food.

Help prepare the Missio Dei Urban Garden for planting. The Missio Dei community operates a city-plot sized urban garden where they grow food for their various hospitality ventures.

Help with the Marie Sandvik kids club–a South Minneapolis program offering meals, bible lessons, crafts, games, and singing to local children.

Join a small group going to a park to play basketball with local youth.

Spend the afternoon meeting area homeless on the street and buy them lunch.

Experience one of the most diversely populated places in the US as you take a learning tour from the West Bank to Little Earth, a 212-unit housing development for Native Americans.

Students have the option of going on a resource-less scavenger hunt. Without any money or anything of value, students would go off on their own to accomplish things on a list like “go to a restaurant and get some food” or “try to get $5 from a person on the street” or any number of things that help students understand what it is like to try to live well without any resources.

I chose to go to Little Earth to do service learning. Alot of the experience involved walking- and listening as we took a guided tour with the people who live and breathe this culture. This is one of the most diversely populated places in the US. We began near the Riverside Plaza (the heart of the West Bank…known to locals as the “Crack Stacks” or “Little Mogadishu” to Little Earth.

Little Earth is a 212-unit housing development for Native Americans. We met two wonderful people who took time to share with us their experiences and wisdom. Margaret is the executive director for the Dakota Ojibwe Language Revitalization Alliance. Here were some of the things she shared:

During the 1865 treaties, the Ojibwe nation was being forced to move west into Dakota land (MN, SD, ND), and there was strife over these areas. There are 11 tribes in MN (4 Dakota, most on the rivers, and 7 Ojibwe tribes). The Dakota people use the same word for “mother” that they use for all of the mother’s sisters- so you can imagine how well the children are cared for. They have many mothers.

In 1862, during the Dakota wars, Governor Ramsey forced many native tribes to leave MN, they were forced into areas of South and North Dakota, and Canada – and many live there to this day. Christian boarding schools began trying to assimilate native people to the European/Christian culture and forced many children to change their names to Christian names like ‘David,’ or ‘James’ or ‘Peter.’ Speaking the Dakota language became illegal- many children had fingers cut off or were beaten for speaking Dakota or Ojibwe in their classrooms.

Margaret is working now to protect what she calls an “endangered language.” The Dakota language. There are only 9 fluent Dakota speakers in the state of Minnesota, so she believes it is essential to teach and train children to speak it with freedom and pride.

We met another man named Kristian who is the Youth Director for the youth drop-in center within Little Earth. He was an eloquent man, with alot of charisma and passion. He talked about the difference between enabling people and empowering them. How handouts are different than life skills and education. He said that alot of the young ones hide behind culture to excuse their wrong behavior. When they do something wrong, they say, “It’s because I’m Indian, isn’t it.” He always says, “No. It’s because you made a choice that was wrong. Your culture has nothing to do with that choice.”

It was interesting for him to hear that we were students from InterVarsity, a Christian organization. He talked about the the scars of the past that were placed on his people in the name of this tainted form of Christianity, about grandpas and grandmas who are still pissed because they are missing fingers. He said one thing very profound:

“Religion and spirituality are two very different things. Religions is all about specifics. You go to a specific place at a specific time for a specific reason with specific people. But spirituality is about getting up in the morning and thanking your Creator that you are alive and have been given another day.”

He warned us that the hurt is still there, but encouraged us to keep doing what we doing, changing stereotypes and working with the kids.

After this the group as a whole came back to the church and spent time sharing our experiences and reading our poems to each other. Then Helen, Anna and I jumped on the light rail and went over to the West Bank, to an African restaurant called Tam Tam’s. We ate like queens- Ugali, chapati, injero ‘n’ wot, lentil sambosas, goat stew, mmmmmm….. it was wonderful.

we spent the evening with the whole group in the theatre district- we went to a show at Bedlam Theatre called “You’re No Fun,” and it was just wonderful. I could not stop laughing- it was simple and cute- but there was so much talent on that stage, I was really impressed.

This morning, the three of us girls decided to go to a church called “Sanctuary Covenant.” It was so fun. The worship team was huge, so diverse, so many people groups represented, people with so much joy and flavor and passion and excitement. Two people on the drums, one with a set and the other with bongos, a keyboard, saxophone, guitars, singers- it was just so alive. I had so much fun, I was dancing in my seat. Pastor Efrem Smith shared about the importance of being Christ-minded, driven for his purposes in a culture that wants us only to look to ourselves and our personal gain. It was wonderful. I was so encouraged to see the distinct beauty of reconciliation in action. God so placed that on my heart for Seattle. I want that so much for the people of Seattle, because God’s heart IS to reconcile people to each other, and to reconcile people to Himself!

A- stinkin- MEN!

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passion and mission

April 19, 2008 at 3:53 am (Christian Life, film, race, social justice)

I just watched a film called Sophie Scholl – The Final Days (German: Sophie Scholl – Die letzten Tage). It is a 2005 German film by director Marc Rothemund and writer Fred Breinersdorfer. It is about the last days in the life of Sophie Scholl, a 21-year-old member of the anti-Nazi non-violent student resistance group the White Rose, part of the German Resistance movement. She was found guilty of high treason by the “People’s Court” and executed the same day, February 22, 1943.

The thing that really got to me was her understanding that sometimes ideas are worth more than life. There is a scene in the movie where Sophie concedes her involvement (as has Hans) but, determined to protect the others, steadfastly maintains that the production and distribution of (thousands of) copies of leaflets in cities throughout the region were entirely the work of Hans and herself. Mohr admonishes her to support the laws that preserve order in a society that has funded her education (and the educations of her friends); Scholl counters that before 1933 the laws preserved the right of free speech. She has seen police spit in the face of her Jewish schoolteacher, seen mentally disabled children taken away in trucks to be euthanized, learned about the Jewish extermination camps from soldiers returned from the eastern front. Some lives are unworthy, Mohr suggests; every life is precious, counters Sophie, final judgments are not for humans to make. Mohr cannot understand how conscience can be a reliable basis for action. “Without law, there is no order. What can we rely on if not the law?” Mohr asks. Sophie mildly replies, “Your conscience. Laws change. Conscience doesn’t.” He is affronted by her frank dismissal of Hitler. When she says that she is willing to accept all blame, and refuses to name accomplices, he ends the interrogation.

I began to think about the things that most get to me, the things that most drive me. I’ve been going to an early morning coffee-shop discussion (Catalyst) and the recurring theme seems to be- finding a driving statement, a ‘goal for life’, if you will. Back in January 2007, after getting home from Urbana, I wrote this down:

Personal Mission Statement
To work from my heart and to live a life worthy of the calling that God has placed on my life.

Some other notes were:

-Strongest Passions
1. Loving the poor/helpless
2. Fighting injustice
3. Serving others
4. Accountability and freedom on all levels
5. Prayer renewal
6. Identifying spiritual gifts
7. Encouraging others

Where my life needs better balance
1. Friendships
2. Learning vs. Application of Knowledge
3. Dates with God

Five Goals in relation to Mission Statement
1. Walking in faith vs. fear
2. Invest in accountability
3. Stop comparing myself to others
4. Fight selfishness in my life choices
5. Continually check and recheck motives

I had other things written, like, “Greatest Natural Abilities,” “Spiritual Gifts,” “Where I best fit in a team setting,” “Finances” and “How to measure results..” At the time, it really encouraged me. I know, they’re ‘lists.’ And I may or may not be a ‘list’ person. But I encourage you to think about your own “mission statement…” It’s actually pretty practical.

I want to tie all of this back to Sophie. Somehow, she had a faith that was unwavering- she had faith in an idea, that somewhere down the road there would be freedom for Germany and if she had to die to make a point, she was willing to do so. That is courage. I want to meet her someday, ask her what was really going through her mind in that jail cell, awaiting a beheading. And then ask her about that moment when her dream really did come true, when the Nazi regime did crumble… though she wasn’t alive to see it, I believe she was above it somewhere. I want courage like that.

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Out of the Question…Into the Mystery

April 13, 2008 at 11:35 pm (Christian Life)

Notes from the book, “Out of the Question, Into the Mystery”

For the Jews, the unique place where God encountered humans was the temple and (before that) the tent or tabernacle. For Jesus, the unique place where God encounters humans is the human heart. But the church has embalmed Jesus in rules, codes, canonicities, and traditions that have everything to do with the church’s saving itself and nothing to do with the church’s saving the world.

The first Christians didn’t proclaim a creed or a statement of faith; they didn’t demand assent to a list of facts; they proclaimed the Cross; they proclaimed the Resurrection; they proclaimed the coming kingdom of Christ.

Western Christianity is largely belief based and church focused. It is concerned with landing on the right theology and doctrine and making sure everyone else toes the line. The Jesus trimtab, in contrast, is relationship based and world focused. We have yanked ourselves from the soil of relationship with God so we can do the work of tidying things up. We are now sanitized and correct, factual and precise, but tragically bereft of relationship. We are disconnected from our source so that we have become sterile. We may be doctrinally correct, but we have become spiritual cadavers.

We need to replant the faith in the rich biblical soil from which it has been uprooted.
The bottom line benchmark from the ancient Hebrews? Again a simple, yet precise, answer: “To do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God.” The answer of a Palestinian Jew named Jesus? “For God so loved the world…” In other words, whether you’re reading the Old Testament or the New, the answer is “relationship.”

For five hundred years we’ve struggled with reformational questions: What are the marks of a true church? How do we make a pure church, or a restructure church? A reformational paradigm is inward looking, revolving around the word COME. Such a paradigm suggests that outsiders should be concerned about the family feuds within the household of faith.

Watching what God is up to today suggests less a reformational paradigm than a missional paradigm. In other words, rather than a call to take care of family business, yet again, after five hundred years of trying, God seems to be calling us to take care of the world. This raises outward focused questions such as: How do we communicate with a post-Christendom, anti-Christian culture? How do we let go of the word come and instead obey the command of Jesus to GO? Just as the reformational paradigm made every disciple a minister (the “priesthood of believers”), the missional paradigm is making every disciple a missionary as well as a minister.

Io sono la Via, la Verita, la Vita
I am the way and the truth and the life… Follow me. ~Jesus

Amazingly, the segment of the church that’s rooted in the Reformation has lost touch with the key doctrine of that movement: Justification by grace through faith. Evangelists still preach faith, and pastors continue to urge parishioners struggling with life’s setback to “have faith.” But in the daily life of faith we have lost sight of faith. Or more accurately, we’ve developed more of a faith “perspective” than a faith “posture.” We’re there in theory but not in practice.

Maimonides- far from a mere idea, faith was a living encounter with the living God.

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A Day In The Life…

April 9, 2008 at 4:13 am (Christian Life)

Isn’t it funny how life can get so consistent and planned that we really begin to lose all of the things we live for? Or patterns. Take ‘quiet times’, for example. I love quiet times. I savor them…for awhile. And then it starts to get hard. You know, the typical lies, “I could be doing something better with this time; or, ‘there’s someone who needs my time and attention more than this book of Scripture,’ or ‘this is boring,’ or ‘this isn’t really doing anything for me’”…yadeeda and the list goes on.

I was hit hard tonight with a profound truth that was beginning to fester in my heart since last week. It’s always after I lay down in bed to sleep, and am trying to keep my eyes closed and focus on the REM stage- that’s when my mind takes off and goes a’wanderin.

This same truth that was spoken to me tonight, had already been in my subconscious thoughts, my angry “CAN’T YOU JUST TURN OFF BRAIN, I’M TRYING TO SLEEP” thoughts.

Truth: Where my string ends, He ties a knot and holds it up.

Now, that may seem a little silly and un-diplomatic, theological, prophetic. That’s okay. I’m not really going for that right now. Actually, I have to humble myself and say that no matter how desperately I desire it, I am entirely simple to my core.

I am a wreck. I am so in need of forgiveness that it actually makes me sick to my stomach.

I am guilty of hypocrisy- to the max, even.

My pride makes way for self-depreciation and it is a constant scale, up and down, up and down- weighing in and out, one day I’m humble enough to admit my weaknesses, the next day I am proud enough to take down an army with my attitude.

It seems these are all common discoveries, the simple profound reality that ‘where we are weak, He is strong,’ but it really is true, and it has to be true- otherwise our Christian faith would be solely dependent on our own strength.

I have not the faith, but I believe. It’s strange, but though I desperately love Him, I know I need Him, but this cannot become a ‘thing’, a ‘to-do’ list, a ‘burden,’ if I may boldly say. My faith is not MY faith, it is really HIS faith in me- His love for me. His willingness to entrust this gift of grace to me.

The unrelenting gift of a gift taken in vain, rubbing the rose in the concrete. I don’t even know what I’m writing, sorry if nothing makes sense. What makes sense to me is only forgiveness, is only fairness, is only grace, and I have nothing in me (nothing that I can lift up to Him) that is worthy of what He has given me. Ever.

Truth: I’ve broken that thread, over and over again.
Truth: He just ties another knot and keeps us together, Him and I. The Savior and the Sinner. Over and over and over and over and over and over and…

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Notes From the Daily Grind

April 3, 2008 at 12:50 pm (personal)

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TOP REASONS TO BE ALIVE TODAY

Political and Religious Freedom
Can I get an “amen” for that one? It is such a blessing to live in a culture and society where I can choose how to express myself, my passions, my creativity. Without these basic, social freedoms, it would be really difficult to envision change or to believe in any kind of revolution. Impossible, even.

Decoupage
Yes, the stuff that is clear that paints over just about anything; tables, lamps, paper, frames, someone’s skin. It is a beautiful thing. Without decoupage, there would be no reason to live.

The Book, “A People’s History of the United States of America”
This book is fabulous. I learned about when I was living with my friend Christy in Seattle this summer. It’s a thick book filled with history written from the perspective of the poor, the working class, the African slaves, the Native Americans, the women in colonial days, the children in the textile mills… it has probably been my best read this year. Wanna borrow it after I’m done? You have to let me finish it, though!

Car Singing
This is one dynamics of being alive that I must admit I enjoy. I gotta say that I enjoy solo road trips from time to time, just to see how loud my voice can actually get. I recently bought Brett Dennen’s new CD, “So Much More” and I love blasting it in the car. Oddly enough, it simply refreshes my soul.

Compulsive Thrift Store Purchases
Winona Volunteer Services. That’s the way to go. After a recent assessment of my closet, I have discovered that 60% of my clothes have come from the good, faithful thrift store. It’s amazing how someone’s trash can really be someone’s joy. That is a beautiful thing on so many levels.

Coffee Dating
Yes, this is usually done on a friend-to-friend basis, so I am not just ‘coffee-shop-dating-around.’ It just sounded more fun to say. This is when I pull out my reusable Mugby mug and get a warm, sweet, honey cinnamon latte and sit down with a special person to ask the important and not so important questions, and get all the best answers.

Grace & Peace

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